So this is where we are. If you've been following along, you know this blog used to be about the restoration and love of my old Tartan 27 "moose". Well, after several years of enjoyment and restoration, sadly we realized that we wanted to move aboard a sailboat and actually try living on it. "Moose" at only 27 feet was entirely too small for a comfortable existence. So, We need something bigger. That's where we are now...
Personally... after owning a couple houses over the last fifteen years, I'm tired of it. Cutting the grass, fixing hot water heaters, leaky roof's and crazy neighbors. I've spent thousands upon thousands of dollars, as most of us have, on mortgages, kitchen upgrades, taxes, etc... etc.. and I don't feel one tad bit more secure than I ever have. The dream of home-ownership has never been for me. I've tried to buy into it and picture myself with the picket fences, and all that crap but I can't. I've always been a wanderer, seeker and vagabond. I grew up in a house where that was highly discouraged. "Go to college, get a J.O.B and work for the same company for 25 years and retire with a pension" was the company line in my family. A Marine Corps father and highly intelligent and over achieving siblings is what I was surrounded by. But I was the artistic kid and while I really tried to tow that line, I couldn't do it. Still can't.
I could go on for days but that would be arduous at best. Long and the short of it is, I found me a girl who is smart, beautiful, adventurous and also ready for a big change. If this wold has taught us anything over the last decade, it's that nothing is guaranteed. Nothing. Life is right now. Happening in front of us everyday. My Marine father is battling Parkinson's Disease as we speak. Melody's mom is wrestling with Lupus and the tragic effects it has on an otherwise vibrant woman. We aren't guaranteed a healthy "old age" and even if we were, when I'm 70 years old, am I going to want to run around the globe and try new things, live uncomfortably if even for a day? Chances are, I'm not. I've been observing the world around me vigorously... differently after the events of September 11, 2001. It was a day that changed my life forever.
Where I thought I'd find "security" I found absolute unrest. I've been an artist my whole life... Like it or not, that's the fact. Sometimes I don't much like it to be honest. I've had a "regular" J.O.B for the last 10 years... and it's nearly killed me. So, the house is for sale. I sold the drum kit I've had for 25 years. I've given away things near and dear to my heart because I'm sick to death of STUFF. Shit I own that brings me no comfort and provides no enlightenment what-so-ever. My books, and a couple of guitars I will keep. The rest... gone.
I do dream of having a small, eclectic cabin on the lake someday. One with a library and large stone fireplace. I'd like to have some chickens, grow my own food and write my crazy poetry and silly songs. I would but right now, my brain is around breaking away. It's about throwing off the wet and musty blanket I've covered myself in for the last decade and leaping off the ledge. This story, The "Story Of Moose" is no longer about a boat. It's about us, Melody, Jet (our dog) and myself. We are "moose" and this is about our "journey". The journey that we've been on together for the last 6 + years and the journey we're attempting to under-take as we go forward.
Very inspiring. And very interesting that I just had a similar conversation with my hubby ...what's it all for? The house...the stuff...etc. Good luck on your journey and more power to you both. And let me know about the chickens as we are considering that (and we started growing a lot of our own veggies). And who is to say anyone will be around to enjoy any so-called pension. Many people save and save and save and drop dead before they retire. Peace.
ReplyDeleteThank you Kasya. You make great points. I've been wrestling with that same issue for a few years. Work, slave, save... IRA's, etc... and then things happen that we can't control and people lose their retirement funds, homes, etc... Go for the brass ring. Create the life you've imagined and dwell in possibility! Much love
ReplyDeleteI agree! The more stuff we acquire, the more cluttered our mind, the more trappings we have! You only live once! I applaud you both!
ReplyDeleteI couldn't have said it any better myself! I'm just so glad I am learning theses lessons at 28 and not 48. I can't wait to unload this house that his been holding me back from doing the things I need and want to do. But as you said, it's all a journey, and I'm trying to enjoy every minute along the way...
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ReplyDeleteKeep dreaming and chasing your dreams! I have had this exact thought many times... how we have it backward... we work so hard when we are young and healthy and then don't when we are old and not able to do as much. I want to flip it, too. Good luck in your journey!
ReplyDeleteI'm right with you guys. May will be bringing a huge yard sale to begin the process of ridding us of our "stuff". Our goal is to finish Luna Sole (Bayfield 32')and sell her, then begin outfitting Eclipse(Cabo Rico 38')to get her ready to go. Time is the most precious of all commodities I own and I can honestly say we don't have enough. Working on making more! Here's to steady winds, beautiful sunsets and fixing our boats in exotic locations someday soon!
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